Living Contradiction

There's this time in everyone's life where they wonder what they're doing in this life of theirs. How long will you survive? When will you? Once your destiny is fulfilled will you leave this earth? These questions are all in your past. Your destiny is to live. To be. To enjoy. Not in your memories of being first born but in your life changing, life saving memories. The memories that stay from an earlier after-life and will continue in your own after-life. It is like a tip handed down generation after generation. Something to help you along the way but in the end it is simple. You can have this information but all the help you really need is in your heart. As long as that continues your body will continue. Your thoughts will live. But you gotta learn to let go of your past, because moving on is better than going backwards or standing still. And that means focusing on right NOW.

Peace.

Lost in the Path of Now

Lost souls go where they think they belong

Out in space

Somewhere in between stars

I'm lost

Like the North Star

Until someone finds me, but I don't know

Why so many people are pointing at me

Maybe it's the reflection of a facade

But truely, it's broken

So no one can really see through

I just need to put them together

So I can get what I want

And see what I want

I will be free

Like the wind that holds no course

I just want to l e a v e

goodbye, I will be back when I've found . . .

Wear Purple 10/20/2010

I apologize, all I have for purple today

Is a pencil

And I wish I could sketch your dreams

Build people’s reality into accepting more than just colors

They say purple is royalty

They say purple is for the spirit

Rainbows just color the sky when it’s rained enough to wash away pain

I know our president is black

But still people’s minds are in gray scale

Can’t you tell between darkness and freedom?

Or have we been enslaved again?

Only this time, there are no color lines

Just a crooked line trying to live in a world of straights

But that’s because lines were never made to connect

Unless you make a box and you see how easy it is to lose focus

Circle your eyes, I mean, really

Encircle your eyes in the truth so you can stop seeing bullshit

Decipher or cipher your scrambled thoughts

That have never quite cracked perfectly

Because how can you get built up by an army of hatred

So here’s my haiku answer;

Some do not believe

But every day is yours

And you will survive

You’ll never die as long as your heart holds love

And I love you, even if no one else does

Because just like you I’m a minority

Hispanic

Baha’i

Adopted

Architectural Engineer

And so on

So you see, we’re all the same

We all have our own language and realize religion is just praising GOD

And a family can be borrowed, especially if you’ve never had one

A house is just the home where your heart lives

Now if only everyone knew Knew that if you just accept the color purple

You can see the rainbow at the end of the world

Only to capture the treasure of blessings before they are martyred

And no one really wants to kill others or see others be killed

So come on, and live for everyone who can’t live anymore

Because even though all I have that is purple is a pencil

I can at least erase the hate

And begin to draw a new beginning

For a Scholarship

A college experience has given me a second chance at a future. Just two years ago, I barely graduated high school with an interest in joining the military. I didn’t have the funds to go to a good college. Instead of the military, I took two years off to do community service. As I tutored elementary students I learned a college education is just as important as passing the 3^rd grade. It wouldn’t make sense for me to teach students how to read if I wasn’t doing the same. I have been in school for about 3 weeks. It has been one of my best decisions. I am officially happy and content with where my life is headed. I’m following my dream of being an Architectural-Engineer. I’m not only doing this for my students, but also for my biological, adopted and U of D Mercy family.

Saving, SuperMan

Have you ever wanted to save someone? Just help them out cause you saw them hurt. Well, yesterday, (yes, I'm a day late), I wanted to help somebody out. She's real pretty and it just seems like she's been going through a lot. I'd like to help her out but I know I can't. Anyways, I wrote this song yesterday. I hope one day you'll find someone. . .

I wish I could be your superman / but I know you're tired of people trying / so I'll leave it up to you / my hand is at your reach / just know when to grab on / cause I don't want to see you fall / let's spring up / and bring summer on your smile / I just want you to be happy /

I see you sitting, chillin’ /

With a gleam in your eyes /

Diamonds in disguise /

I know you wanna cry/

How do I know? /

Cause I rely on my senses /

To show me you’re tense and /

I want you to relax /

Subtract the last guy /

Let go of past tries /

You might just find /

True lines need no trust /

Since lust is lost /

In the history of misery /

Life’s a mystery /

I wish I could be your superman / but I know you're tired of people trying / so I'll leave it up to you / my hand is at your reach / just know when to grab on / cause I don't want to see you fall / let's spring up / and bring summer on your smile / I just want you to be happy /

I remember the day I met you /

You had a set dude /

But it became a set fuel /

With feuds to fuse hate /

You replaced love with weight /

Time to unwind and let free /

Release the tension you mentioned /

To your friends about a future /

One never ending mutual /

But arguments absent /

Of the love once made

You’re stuck on what’s to fade /

But that comes with trade /

A new face of faith so great /

I wish I could be your superman / but I know you're tired of people trying / so I'll leave it up to you / my hand is at your reach / just know when to grab on / cause I don't want to see you fall / let's spring up / and bring summer on your smile / I just want you to be happy /

Trials do come by /

but I wanna see you fly /

see you lie on the clouds /

relaxed, so sound /

nothing profound, just calm /

stand on my palms /

reach for the God /

love with no facades /

add laugh to pass /

on the cruise to truth /

I know it never set you free /

So be imperative to words /

Relative to gold /

Uphold you soul /

Strive for your goals /

and love some more

Vis. Comm.

So this is exciting. My teacher is from Poland. We call her J.Z., yea, like the Rapper only better. She called me a minimalist cause I draw so small. Haha. I really like this class. She says some funny things and I learn a lot. For homework I had to make a cube out of wood. I'm currently drawing two point perspectives. It's actually really fun. I had forgotten how much I enjoy drawing. I remember doing this in High School.

Twice as Much Work is Twice as Much Better

So, I've been having a difficult time adjusting to this thing called school. I'm so hard on myself, like a perfectionist. I have been worried about grades and getting things done. Well, yesterday my mother dropped me off at school. I had a talk with her. Lately I've been having talks with other people and they've been helping me out. I have a very supportive group and I am happy to have them around. Here's my tip to you,

Sometimes when things aren't going right, you just have to keep pushing on. You know why? Well, because you love what you do. Don't let anyone tell you to stop doing that. It is your life and you must live it up.